Friday, June 18, 2010

It's Friday

I've been a bit down today.  and I know why ... I feel fat.
I've been feeling this way since I saw this picture from this past weekend that my friend took --
That's what I look like?  I did not even recognize it as me at first.  That is not what I look like in my head.  I can't believe I'm posting this picture.  I can't believe a picture of me is making me cry.  I never thought this would be me.

I HATE feeling this way!  and then I hate feeling lazy and not working out when I get home.

I've been eating less (for sure), but I don't see any change.  Probably because I don't have time to work out.

and I hate it!

and I'm stressed out about money

and I hate that too.

I wanna go on a vacation ... but I feel too fat and would stress out about money too much.


Here are some cute pictures of me as a little kid ... you know, so you won't be depressed from reading my above post --

(linked up with Old School photos with Dumb Mom)

 -Here's a random thought -- Why do people riot after they win a championship?  Yay ... we won ... let's go break stuff and set it on fire!

Here's my entry for Tooth Soap Father's Day picture ... or something like that ...
My dad and his two girls ... sometime in the 90's.  I'm the one in the purple shirt!
and just for fun ... Andrew and Leah in the tent she got from Santa last Christmas

I need to remember this ... I need to live more like this ... but I'm scared I fall more into the 'you of little faith category'
28"And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,
 29yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
 30"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!

Have a good weekend!
I'm suspending my game till Monday!



  1. I go through this all of the time! I don't recognize myself either from my head to a photo....I remind myself that I can do some things well and some things I need to be patient on and that I have a loving family that only wants for me to be happy- regardless of waste size- so, hang in there! :)- thanks for sharing!

  2. Hey Christie :) i so know how the 'fat' thing feels :/ i am working on fighting it myself, My friend mel has just lost 6 1/2 stone, she was distraught that she had a baby and that her child would be the one to suffer having a 'fat' mummy, it has given her the incentive to lose the weight ... my kids are grown up so i dont have that incentive i have to try and do it for me for my health and well being and im trying to get that in my head .. if mel can do it so can i, im hoping :S ... recent photo's scared me omg!!! so despite very little time im at the gym or even just going for a short walk, although i would love to collapse on the sofa :/ but ive decided i dont want another photo that scares me ... try not to stress to much and take time out for yourself i know its easier said than done .. i guess its up to us what choices we make, hope you can make the ones that make you happy.. take care xxxx

  3. Oh Christy!
    If there is any pain on earth that I know well ... it's this one! And nothing anyone says can make it feel better. Please remember too that we are more than our bodies! You are a beautiful woman inside and out!

  4. I know how you feel, I feel the same way. I dont see myself as being as big as i am until i see a pic and im like no way! But the best thing is you are working on it and just remember that it is a lifestyle change and its not gonna happen overnight. the goal is to get healthy so dont worry about the scale worry about how you feel! You can and will do it and we are all here to support you :)

  5. I know how you feel... I hate pictures of myself especially when I am with my friends, because in my head I still look like the girl i was in middle school, and all my friends are super skinny...

    But being healthy is the most important thing. I also second on the worrying and not having time to work out.. I am kind of in the same boat... money worries make me feel exusted and then I just cant work out because of trying to find a job.

  6. Oh sweetie, we all go through that. Please believe me when I say you are gorgeous and should take pride in that. You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

  7. you're not the only one who feel this, honey. we all have moments. as long as you're healthy, everything's okay.

  8. That's a bummer, feeling that way. It's depressing, but hopefully motivating. What sucks is that it's WORK to get in shape (I hate that kind of work.) Thankfully, you're a wonderful person, and you don't have to work at that :)

  9. Oh hugs! I've found myself in a similar situation. In fact I blogged about it a while back ( Since then I have lost 30+ pounds. It wasn't easy and I'm kind of stuck right now. But my suggestion would be do one thing until it becomes second nature (as you're doing with the eating less) and then add in something else -- my doc said to start with even 10 minutes of physical activity.

    Of course, most of us know what we need to do. It just takes the right frame of mind, the right determination for us to choose to do it. Best of luck to you.

  10. I just saw a pretty smile - :)

    Don't be too hard on yourself - there's not enough time on the Earth for it !

    Sweet entries.... Love those masks and the tent.


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